Saturday, September 09, 2006
i feel like i'm on a hunger strike or something. i refuse to eat despite how hungry i am.
i don't even know my purpose in doing this but i just feel like i need to do this. hur no i do not have a eating disorder, go away.

okay i was f king pissed just now. but i'm better now! why? cause i stayed up the WHOLE night, partially cause i couldn't sleep, but yes the whole night so that i wouldn't oversleep or wake up late to go for my brother's passing out parade. and yes that was the only way to do so. and so i went with the parents and his friends were there too. parade was nice but i'd blog about that tomorrow or later cause i'm still not in the mood :/ and after that the momma sent my brother and his friends to tampines for lunch and the daddy and i went to sim lim to get me new earphones cause my old one died. so we went to sim lim, both of us were like walking zombies so we just bought it from the first stall we went to and left for home. and so i came home and thought maybe i can take a half an hour or an hour rest before going to church for fellowship and then service. so yes i went to rest specifically telling my maid to wake me up for church. and when i woke up to a completely dark room i knew something was wrong and i was right cause it was 7 35pm and service is saturday @ 7 not saturday @ 8 so i was obviously late and i felt so annoyed with myself cause i was sort of looking forward to service (and that was a very long sentence) and UGHH ))))): and my mother had to rub it in even more and i felt like crap when everyone was asking me if i was going for service and why didn't i go for service. and now i feel like the biggest moronic loser on earth thank you very much ):

and that's the end of my story. tsk

and i never seem to learn the lesson of not overworking myself. and that i simply cannot just stay awake for everything i do not want to miss cause i would end up missing something else instead? makes sense?
okay sorry i'm just a little hungry. all i had the entire day was half a cup of milo and a curry puff and it has been more than 12hours already :/

later